Ending the week

It's a Sunday night. I have had a few beers and a delicious white Russian...it was not white in color...? It was more of a beige Russian. I am getting ready to call it a night. There is some ridiculous medical drama trying to emulate Grey's Anatomy on TV. There was a day I was hooked on Grey's...the characters and the story sucked me in and had me hanging on every word. As the seasons have progressed I have become less and less enchanted with the melodrama and the complicated characters. Non-committal, obsessed with the dead, angry, dysfunctional interns turned residents get old...literally and figuratively. They never outgrow the issues and complications. They never recognize their faults and attempt to rise above. They are never happy.

I feel for the characters, but I can't sit down and watch these self-loathing fools continue to save the lives of patients and neglect their own lives. Last season, when Izzy/George died I gave up. I hope the day will come where Meredith loves McDreamy and realizes that he loves her. I hope McSteamy's ego doesn't kill another young, impressionable girl's self esteem. I hope that Christina will learn to find an emotion other than anger. I hope that Izzy and Alex use their friendship to build one another up, rather than tear one another down. I hope the writers give these people a chance...otherwise this show is just sad and none of these people have progressed as individuals in 5 years.

I am a writer (amateur of course!) and while I can't write the storyline of my life exactly; I can't make a script and kill off characters (though I might want to at times) who cause harm to myself and others around me; and I can't write in love and happy endings, I can recognize that there are times when I deserve to get beyond my hang-ups. There is a time when being complicated, distant, and emotionally void gets old. I can choose to close old doors and open new doors. I can choose to leave my past story lines in the dust and open myself to the new, the different, the positive. Tomorrow is Monday...a new week and a new start. I am starting a new season with fresh perspective.

BTW, nice win Steelers!