Gripes

It has been almost two weeks since my last blog. I have sort of been in a funk and whatever I would have written in that time frame would have been bitter and angry. I am a fairly upbeat person by nature, but sometimes I have pretty ugly mood swings which can send me plummeting into the depths of brief depression. It waxes and wanes and I climb out with a sunny disposition. I am "sunny" for a few weeks and then dip back into a few days of darkness. It's part of being a cancer...and I also blame it on my wacked out hormones from the lack of thyroid gland. I have been pseudo bipolar my whole life and I hate it. Anyhow, for those of you who read this (which I think might just be MB) here are some things I would like to get off my chest:

There is nothing more unattractive than people who can't do things for themselves. This comes mainly from my current job situation, but it can be seen everywhere around me. I wish I could say no. I am not a waitress, a travel agent, a secretary, a courier, a customer service rep, a printer repairman, a caterer, etc. Adults should not be this needy! I actually had someone ask me to provide landmarks of the building that SHE works in so that she could tell her guests coming to the meeting where HER office is. I know that my job is at the bottom of the corporate food chain, but someday I plan to be on the other end, and when I am I assure you that I will have the decency to earn my own paycheck, even if it requires me to do something unglamorous...like get my own coffee.

Dirty Dads. Okay so the weather in Charlotte was damn near perfect yesterday. It was a gorgeous fall day and I had every intention of enjoying it. I went to Freedom Park, where all of Charlotte seems to go in between lake season when we get a stint of nice weather. As I imagined, it was packed. Soccer players, strollers, joggers, dogs, geese, hippies, brides...there were all types meandering around the park taking in the sun. I showed up with my ipod in my normal workout wear- not sexy- eager to soak up some sun and take a jaunt around the park and surrounding "booty loop". Because of the bright sun, I was forced to wear my sunglasses (divots!) and from behind my sunglasses I started to observe a trend. During my 3-4 mile trek I must have passed four dozen families of mom, dad, and small tot in a stroller. I would wager to bet that of these two dozen of the dads chalantly (yes- the opposite of nonchalant) checked me out. It made no difference that they were walking hand in hand with their three year old daughter---or that their wife was two paces ahead with the Jack Russell terrier. Blatant gawks were made. And following the gawks from dad I would get a scowl from mom. Like it's my fault! I know the whole defense that looks are harmless and that "it's what guys do", but seriously amid your familial quality time I think men should be able to restrain themselves. And wifey, please redirect your anger towards your husband. I came here to loop around the pond listening to Akon and work off my egg mcmuffin. I do not have a hidden agenda to temp the poor beaten down husbands of Dilworth.

And lastly, I have to ask why so many people who are in relationships so obviously don't really want to be in relationships. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you wasting his/hers? Have you given up on finding someone that actually makes you happy? Do you care that your dishonesty is compromising their happiness? Have you given in to settling? Do you get a cheap thrill out of being a liar/cheat? I just have to ask these questions, because much like the needy people I mentioned above I also see more and more people who are in relationships for the wrong reasons...out of convenience. It's quite sad that people would rather be reckless with other people's hearts than be honest with themselves.

I digress. I feel a bit better now.